Habits

Before I found my current job I was a substitute teacher.  This in an of itself is horrible.  Kids are not what they used to be.  Technology seems to have made them strangely detached, and this has led to increasingly poor behaviour, especially if a substitute is present.  Now enter an obese substitute into the picture.  It's not pretty.  Kids are mean to their peers, but their even meaner to obese substitute teachers.  They call you names, say offensive comments, and draw cartoons of you.  It's not a fun time, and caused me a large amount of stress.

Thankfully, well not really, but sort of, subbing here is mostly part time work.  So, you're not in the classroom everyday.  But this in itself is a problem.  If you're not working, you're not getting paid.  And if you're not at work, what are you doing with your time?

I used to tell my mom that I was going to the gym.  I'd get dressed in my gym clothes, fill a bottle of water, make a show of putting my headphones in my purse. 

I'd get in my car, drive down the highway, and end up at the movie theater.  I would buy the largest popcorn, smother it with "margarine" and sit in the dark theater by myself eating.  I saw all the movies.  Even the terrible ones.  My desire to eat was horrible.  I branched out from popcorn to chicken tenders and fries, covered in honey mustard sauce.  It wasn't even delicious, it was just a habit that I had that I couldn't break. 

I really don't know what my mom thought I was doing at the gym all that time, I wasn't losing a single pound.  And some of the movies that come out are just sooo long. 

I'm on vacation from work this week... for the first few days all I wanted to do was go eat some popcorn.  But I remember last weeks 6lbs.  It's not worth it.  The 2 hours of munching will not make me happy.  Today, I will get my stuff together and drive to the gym.  Fulfill some of the exercise component of this challenge.  Exercise will be my new habit.