It had just come to me.

The only solution possible

Move out of the country

Give parents the address of my blog

That should satisfy them right?

Readers Please Come Back

Readers Please Come Back

Ok I know I've been a bad blogger

But I promise to be better

Please - people who used to read all this nonsensical rambling

Please come back

It'll be worth it

I could be funny again

probably

Ok so Gina pointed out that I haven't put a pic of myself on here in a long time, and yes, that is true. So here we go. Readers beware...scary times ahead.


It's been a long night of thinking about exactly what it is I'm going to do. I suppose really no decision needs to be made, and I really have no job anywhere. It's actually kind of scary to graduate from University, for the second time, and really have nothing. I mean yeah, I have friends and family and all that jazz - but, future = still totally up in the air.

This time next year I could be anywhere. It's a little scary.

I'm pretty sure my left arm is sunburned from driving around with Gina today. Frig. It's itchy like it's on fire.

Random thought aside: what to do.

NOTE: my teeth look really white in this photo WOOT!
When do you reach the point where you wonder if it's worth it to chase after a fantasy? I mean, this fantasy makes you extremely happy....and you think that fantasy could equate reality....so, is it worth it to go after it and leave everything you know behind?

I don't know...it really feels like it is. Like this could be the thing I would regret doing if I don't do it. So I suppose that means, go for it.

This all seems obvious as I'm writing this...but honnestly, it's been hours of wondering and staring around my room at nothing listening to Josh Ritter over and over and over. because I'm to lazy to add another disc to my stereo.

God, how can I survive on my own? Who will I hang with? Do you need people to hang with if you're attending a music festival in Hyde Park? You can go to that alone right?

Oy Vey

It just occured to me that I can't recall the last time I had a hug. This realization is doing nothing to improve the mood I currently find myself in. Depression is probably the closest word. And it's crazy because two days ago I was as high as a kite in a state of excitement.

The thing is - is that I want to move to Chicago. I'm currently looking for a teaching job there, and I'm trying to get certified and get a work visa and all that stuff. The problem is - my parents have gone completely insane about the idea of me moving to the states.

They're scared I'll get injured and then not be able to pay hospital fees, or what if I get mugged, or what if the school is unsafe.

And even knowing that all those things are possiblilties - I still want to go. I want to go really really badly.

Time for an adventure I say!

Mom: I'm hopped up on caffiene like that guy in the soccer movie.

Me: What are you talking about?

Mom: Will Ferell when he discovers coffee in that soccer movie

Me: OK

Mom: I discovered the greatest thing

Me: What is it?

Mom: amazon.com

Me: OMG

OK so about a month ago I signed up to be interviewed by Barbara - and then I totally forgot to answer her interview questions and they've just been sitting in my email inbox forever.

So here we go:

1. How many pairs of shoes do you own?

15

2. If you could choose only one, would you rather be beautiful, charming, or smart?

Smart

3. If you were able to learn the date and manner of your death, would you want to know?

No - then everday I would just think about things I want to do before I die, at least if you don't know you can't regret not finishing your "to do before I die" list.

4. What would be the best super power to have? Why?

Hmmmm tough question. OK time travel. Then I could go back and see anything I want, or go forward to see what it'll be like after I'm gone, assuming that I'm not immortal of course. Also, you could totally travel forward to find out things like lottery numbers, or the answers to tomorrow nights Jeopardy and then impress all your friends with your Jeopardy knowledge.

5. What would you do if you had the entire day off, no responsibilities, and someone handed you $1000?

I would hop on a plane to New York and buy a pair of designer shoes that I would never ever take off. OR I would walk around town and give it away to people who are nice to me, and laugh at the people who were rude. Yeah, OK the second one, that sounds like more fun.

• If you want to be interviewed: Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me!" along with your email address.
• I will respond by e-mailing you five questions. I get to pick them, and you have to answer them all.
• You will update your blog with the answers to the questions.
• You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the same post.
• When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.

Lord, beer me strength

It's hard to believe that in 5 days this will all be over. I've been in university for 7 years. 7 years! and in 5 days it's all over.

I'm possibly having a bit of a mental breakdown....but I still have a paper to write and a final exam to study for.

I'm going to have to look for a job. A real job, not just some crazy summer job. eeek I'm getting old and it's freaking me out.

So I read JPod today. Fucking amazing. So funny. I know I'm behind the times with that one - but I was waiting for soft cover, screw that hard cover bullshit. It's a pain in the ass, and hard to read in the bath.

Over the past 5 days, I have come to realize that maybe I really am supposed to be on the "educator" side of the education scheme of things.
I'm taking an ethics course...to learn not to sleep with my students...it's super interesting as you can imagine. Only 3 weeks long thank god. I'm pretty sure that about 9 out of 20 students are counting how many times the instructor says that we will "tease out" the information. I've seen a number of tally sheets....very amusing.

In other news... there is no other news.

I'm bored lately, and kind of lonely. In love with an idea.. but nothing that will ever happen realistically.

At least The Office has been totally awesome lately.

PS - I am watching K-PAX instead of going to bed and being rested for my stupid class. Kevin Spacey is bitchin