Weekly Weigh In - Phase 4 Week 4

Well the results are in, down 2 lbs this week.  Kinda disappointing, but, I started the week not really focused, but with all the support I received, the rest of the week went well.  I've got my motivation back in spades, to be honest, I didn't think I was going to lose anything this week because of how it started off, but when I saw a drop on the scale I was overjoyed, and I'm ready to see a lot more losses.

This week is going to kick ass - it's shape up or leave the challenge, and I don't want to leave, so, 1200 cals, zillions of ounces of water, and nothing else, except the exercise that is.

Let's have a great week everyone!

And thanks to Debbie and Fat2Fit for two more Stylish Blogger Awards!

Brownies and Cookies and Pastries - Oh My!

Brownies, cookies and pastries are only a few of the things that are currently being carted in by the caterers.  I ate none of these things - I usually go for the veggies, but as there were none today, I had nothing.  Just the sandwich and apple that I brought for lunch.  That was enough anyway.

I'd like to sincerely thank everyone in the Challenge who reached out to me.  I've never had to many emails in a day - unless we're talking about penis enlargement ads and offers to help princes in far off countries. 

When I first saw my name on the list of people needing help I was embarrassed, ashamed, and kind of horrified.  I knew I hadn't been doing well, ok, terrible, but seeing my 0.8% really put things into perspective.  I really don't want to be the person who signs up for a weight loss challenge, who writes a weight loss blog - and doesn't lose weight.  It's say, and it's not going to be me.

To be honest, the emails I received were nothing short of amazing.  I teared up in the lunchroom and got quite a few odd looks. 

While I felt like a complete disappointment after reading them, I was also incredibly inspired.  I know what to do to lose weight, it's just really time to start doing it. 

I made the trek to the gym yesterday, I attempted to take the LRT there, big mistake.  The stop is really far away from the gym, normally, that's awesome b/c it's a bit of extra walking, but, through huge piles of mushy snow, it's just a huge pain in the ass.  I'll be driving to the gym tomorrow, assuming I don't get stuck in the alley, which happened a few days ago.

Side note: if you have to get stuck in the snow, make sure you're blocking the whole road, that way people are forced to help you if they want to continue on their way!

Weekly Weigh In - Phase 4 Week 3

Down 1 lb this week, landing me at 236lbs.

Tomorrow I'm going to venture to the gym.  Adding that to the exercise that we're expected to do for Phase 4, I'm hoping it'll give me a boost to have a good loss this week.

We've been getting catered food at work.  I've skipped all of it except for a couple pieces of fruit, and a bunch of celery and carrots.  Most people have been complaining of stomach aches after eating it anyway - so, it's a good thing I'm not indulging in it.

The Worst January Since 1974...

... well isn't that just great.

The snow piles are taller than me, my legs are popsicles and my patience has run out with this snow.  As I was shoveling the drive way, I had to stand and ponder for a few minutes, I couldn't figure out where I was going to put the snow.  There's so much, I don't have any more room in my yard.  It's insane.

Lets not even start with the topic of having to pee while shoveling and then having to take off your boots 3 times.  What a pain in the ass.  Flipping water.

I ended up eating supper at 8pm tonight.  Way later than I normally like to eat, but with all the shoveling, there was no avoiding it.  I'm extremely full.  I can't imagine binging on this plan.  I'd explode immediately.

Phase 4 - Week 2 Weigh In

Down 2 lbs this week, sitting at 237 lbs.

I've been following the plan, but I didn't get all the walking in.  It's been -36 here with the wind chill, we have mounds and mounds of snow, and it just didn't happen.   I got in 2 of the 3 days of walking, but they were stretched apart.   I got in all the strength training though. 

Did anyone watch the Golden Globes?  I watched part of it, I love watching all the gorgeous dresses.  I want to lose weight for my health, but to be honest, I'm really really really looking forward to the clothes.

How gorgeous is this dress?  Stunning, I think it was my favorite of the night. 

On another note - now that I've started working full time its about 1000 times easier to get all my fluid in.  A 16oz coffee in the morning, followed by just over 4 liters of water. 

I've also noticed that while I'm filling up my 32oz bottle 3 times while I'm there, coworkers only fill up a mug, and some of them don't even drink a while mug during the day.  No wonder by the time the afternoon rolls around I'm running to the washroom ever 40 minutes and they sit contentedly at their desks. 

Zomg!

Kelly over at Life in the Fat Lane gave me my first ever blog award!  This of course increased my guilt of not being around here that often lately exponentially, but, still, an award!

And here are the rules!

• Post and link back to the person who awarded you this award.
• Share 7 things about yourself.
• Award 15 recently discovered great bloggers (or as many as you can).
• Contact the bloggers and tell them they won!

7 things about me, hmmmmmmmm

1. The only thing I like about winter is my raccoon toque.  
2. I don't really mind being single - I can't imagine being in a relationship at the moment.
3. I'm a complete night owl - AM is my arch nemesis
4. I really want to run a marathon - I was told by someone I could never be a runner, and I really want to prove him wrong
5. My brother and I go to all the Harry Potter movies together - we're planning on going to the Wizarding World of Harry Potter together too
6. I love public transportation
7. I'm addicted to HBO

Awards:

1. Christina
2. Ann
3. Kelly
4. Ann-Marie
5. Jess
   

Phase 4 - Week 1 Weigh In

Up 1 lb this week.  Sitting at 239 lbs.

I think it's the increase in water, definitely not increased calories.  Also - I'm completely plugged up - I tried eating prunes (my first time - delicious!) but I haven't had the expected prune benefit.

I forgot how fast weekends go by.  And how much people dread Monday.

We're in blizzard weather here, tonnes and tonnes of snow.  Shoveling every few hours to keep it manageable. 

The new job is alright - though I'm not a fan of waking up super early :(

Phase 4 - Day 1

Day 1 is in the bag.  Calories came in at 1185, walking done, strength training tomorrow.

In other news, I'm half moving tomorrow.  To be closer to my new job, but I'll be coming home to my parents house on the weekends because I'm sure my mom will be having empty nest syndrome, and also I'll completely miss the dog.

The job starts on Wednesday,  I don't know if I'm excited or not.  Kind of I am, but, it's a little tricky going from super part time work to full time.  I'm used to sleeping in and kinda being in vacation mode, so, pretty much I've gotten really lazy.  This will definitely be a shock to the system for the first bit.

Excited for tomorrow - bring on day 2!

Starting Over

I've been trying to write this post for a few days now, but the words are not really forming properly in my head.

I ran into my old boot camp instructor a few days ago.  I had to leave boot camp for monetary reasons, not the lack of desire to go, but at $200 a month, it was out of my price range while working so infrequently.

When I left, I of course had every intention of continuing to get in shape and lose all the weight I need to.  I envisioned that the next time I saw him, I would be thinner, happier and proud.  This, of course, did not happen. 

When I saw him my whole face turned red.  I was mortified.   Still fat, fatter than I was when I left boot camp, just pure horror running through my veins.  I wanted to run away, hide, more ashamed than I've been in a long long time.

Phase 4 of Allan's Challenge starts in a couple days.  I'm excited for it.  One of the main rules of Allan's Challenges is No BS. 

If I'm completely honest, up until now, I've been, I'd say, 43% full of BS. 

Phase 4 is 100% BS free.  100% commitment.  100% of what I should have been doing since Phase 1.  No more excuses, no more BS, no more whining - just eat less, drink more, move more, and lose it all.