Post #200

sometimes I can't believe I've written this many posts, then I look back and see how dumb most of them are and I'm like OK, its all quantity and no quality. That's only partly true.

In any case - today I asked my boss if he minded being a reference on my resume as I apply for other jobs. He seemed shocked and stunned and looked like he was going to cry. I told him the job I was applying for was way better than this job, and then i told him what it was, and he was like yeah it's better.

He got a 10 day trip for 2 to Aruba for his christmas bonus. I got a freaking box of chocolates. When he told me about the trip (i don't know why he told me) I proceeded to tell him that "hey, you get a trip and i get a lame box of chocolates, not cool" and he was like "well you get a $100 gift certificate too" so i was like "ok, here's the deal, i'll give you the $100 gift certificate and you give me the trip", he did not reply.

I can't believe how long it's been since my last post. It feels like time is flying but at the same time it feels like I haven't been on the computer in a year. My laptop is still gone. They have 3 weeks left to fix it until that have to send me a replacement, and since they don't make my laptop anymore, I"ll be recieving an upgrade, which is sweet, but also very bad as I won't have any of my Matt Good demos anymore. I was a retard and didn't back up my files. I'm devestated.

So if anyone has them, feel free to share them with me and feel my eternal love forever and ever and ever.

I've been up for 22 hours and I am delirious. But i don't want to sleep. I worked 6am to 6pm today, and yesterday for that matter, and this shift kills me. I have no idea how I did it for 4 months straight. I drank 6 cups of coffee today. I love coffee.. mmmmm. I used this mug that looks like a globe, it was pretty sweet. But actually not as awesome as you might think.

OK, now it's sleeping time. I have to shop tomorrow, today I guess, and also change my school schedule.
Bah

THIS BLOG IS FINE HOLIDAY FUN

Put Your Hand Up if You Believe in Christmas Miracles

ME ME ME ME ME

I fucking passed biochem.

It's a Christmas Miracle!

After I got over the relief of passing, the sadness of getting a C set in. Hard to go from an A in the prereq to a C in this course. Oh well.

I have to work tomorrow. Christmas is a good time to work because usually people are kind of happy and then they give you a tip. One year I worked Christmas Eve and this guy gave me a $15 tip. I had to ask him if he was sure, and if he knew his change was $15. He was like "yeah, Merry Christmas!" That's the day I started to believe in Santa again. He was driving a red car.

Today I tipped the guy who pumped my gas $2 and he was really happy. But that's why I gave him a tip in the first place, because seriously, he has the best customer service skills I have ever seen. He's always really happy and smiling and really ummm joyfull would be the best word I suppose. Happy guy that guy.

OK so yesterday I saw King Kong and I was like this movie is going to suck but actually it was one of the bestest movies I've seen in a long time and I loved it so much I want to scream.

Seriously folks, this movie has everything, EVERYTHING. It has a beautiful lady, Naomi Watts is gorgeous, a super yummy guy, oh Adrien Brody delicious, a super cute giant gorilla who laughs like he's the cutest gorilla ever, and DINOSAURS.

Now, despite some major flaws over the dinosaurs, like T-Rex has bad vision, and relies on motion to be able to see, so if you lay there he can't see you, so that was kind of wrong, because she was lying there still as could be and the T-REx saw her, but then she was kind of moving around so I don't know, but other than that the dinosaurs were good.

And this movie is sad, did you know that? I didn't see the original. But I was freaking crying all over the place when he falls off the building and how he's trying to protect Naomi Watts and you can see he loves her and it's really sad.

Fine Holiday Fun

Liar Liar I'm gonna set your fucking Pants on Fire

OM-FUCKING-G!!! I'm in a frenzy. I'm in a fucking swearing hatred frenzy. Just finished Biochem final..

When someone says, ok it's cumulative, but 75% of the test is from the new stuff, how much new stuff are you expecting? 75% right?

Yeah, umm how about 23 out of 100? Does that sound like 75%? NO IT DOES NOT! It sounds like you fucking lied to me and I spent all my time studying stuff that wasn't on the test and now I fucking failed.

Failed hardcore. Probably not even just a little bit, a whole huge lot bit. Like - throw myself in front of a bus failed. Maybe I'll still pass the course and then I don't have to stay in school and extra year because this course fucked me over.

Le Sigh. Boo-urns to Biochem. That's for sure.

beep beep... tomorrow is biochem 310 final.. 50% of my grade.. beep beep

this afternoon i loved biochem, with the regulation of pathways, and the electron transport chain really floating my boat

right now i'm a puddle of worries

i don't know what goes where or what does what and basically i'm fucked... not in the good way

The Black Helicopter has taken off with my Heart

today my hero is Chad for letting me know that Matt Good posted a new demo, Black Helicopter. Ohh Matt Good, you never dissapoint me. Love it. Love it. Love it. Best Christmas present ever. Ok, maybe not, but it's a good one.

Promptly downloaded it and put it on my iPod and rocked out.

I'm back like you wouldn't believe

I know it's been awhile since I've posted, in all honesty, I kind of just forgot about blogging. I wasn't even trying to take a break from it, I just forgot to post. Weird.

Somehow I'm not worried about finals this year. I'm more worried that I'm not worried and then I just start freaking out and ignore all the studying I should be doing but am not.

I haven't done any EDU reading yet, or Psych reading, and somehow, I just don't care.

Did anyone who saw Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire notice that Harry Potter is Frodo Baggins. Seriously, at the end of the movie with him looking in at all the goodbyes, I was like, you are Frodo. I feel like they're making these movies and milking everything they can out of it. Like the first 2 were shot like older movies and this one was like a fucking blockbuster with a symphony and tear jerking scenes and rooting for the good guy and all that. But seriously now, Harry is Frodo, like he's all: I have to fight the battle alone (which doesn't actually happen in this movie but you know what I mean - unless you haven't read the books, then you don't know) so anyway, then Ron and Hermione are going to be - we're coming with you Harry. Blah blah. Which sounds an awful lot like "I'm coming with you to Mordor Mr. Frodo" curtosey of Samwise Gamgee. Anyway, I fucking love Harry Potter.

I have a biochem review in 10 minutes. Last week, I went to my proff's lab to pick up my midterm and he gave me a tour of the lab an explained some stuff he was doing. I don't understand him all that well, because he has a thick cuban accent, but the lab was awesome and it tug on my heart that I didn't go to grad school. Then he gave me my test and went through it and pointed out all the questions I got wrong and said that I had lots of room for improvement. Uhhh thanks, like yeah I know I didn't get 100% but I did go up 22% from the last midterm, so I thought it was pretty good.

Oh and also I got subpoenaed to court to testify in this lawsuit from work. It's going to be sweet. I'm going to put "Expert Witness" in my list of talents on my resume.

Dude

i like to read this book series about a chick named Stephanie and she's a bounty hunter. and i kind of like to think of myself like that, which is totally fucked up, but true. and i'm feeling like i should blog the truth tonight. so that's what you get. i wish i was a bounty hunter. no wait, mainly she has sex with two hot guys, so probably that's what i'm jealous of, and also she seems to have lots of good shoes, and i fucking love shoes. it's like we're kindred spirits. except she's fictional, i'm not crazy, i realize this, ok

today a customer flipped out at me at work. then i found out that a customer spit on one of my coworkers. if that was me, i would have fucking told him off and keyed his car. thats bullshit

he was mad because he had to pay the weekly rate, and was there for like 6days and 14 hours. lunatic. weekly rate starts at 5 days.

they want me to work tomorrow. they asked after my boss made fun of me in my toque, he said i looked like a jester. and then i made fun of him "this from the guy who needs a favor!" fuck i'm awesome. if only i believed that

it's true that i have been drinking. i don't care. i once kicked a guy in the back, everyone thought i was drunk. but really it was like a metaphor, not a simale, because he stabbed me in the back, and also my best friend. i kicked him, and i don't regret it.

some things i do regret. i like to tell myself that i don't regret anything, but that's a big fat lie.

i was watching leno, and tyra banks looked fat, i felt some satisfaction with that, i mean, she didn't look fat, but bigger than she normally does. body size is fucked up these days. that's not an excuse for me, but seriously man, it's crazy. size 0, who the fuck is a zero? that's not realistic

i've been listening to The Scientist by coldplay on repeat for hours. it's by far my favorite coldplay song. i lose myself in it. i love song like that. where it's almost like you're hypnotized, because all of a sudden it's over and you're like wtf?

ok bye

HNT

I'm cancelling HNT until I get my laptop back.

Skipped EDU again today. This is ridiculous. I just hate going to school lately. Well, sort of. I go to school, and then I don't go to class, which is actually really stupid, but yeah.

Anyway, skipped the class, and then went in at the end of the lecture and picked up the essay I handed in a month ago. Before I got the essay back I was kind of worried about it, since I had written it the night before it was due and all. But now that I have it back, I just don't care about this class at all. I mean fuck, I did really well. I no longer have any guilt over skipping that class.


Biochem proff is busy this week and has therefore cancelled all the classes. Such bullshit. I mean, if I don't want to go it's one thing, but to not have class after all these people pay $600 to be there? Bullshit. And it's the most interesting part, integrating metabolism into disease like diabetes and obesity. And now we have to do self-directed learning. Because just because there's no class, doesn't mean it won't be tested. ARG! I was really looking forward to these lectures.

Oh yeah, biochem midterm average: 85% This resulted in one girl getting quite bitchy and asking him if he meant to make it that easy. At which point I started imagining him yelling at her: "yes I fucking did mean for it to be that easy you stupid little bitch. fuck off and enjoy that you had an easy test! you want hard? fine- the final will be like getting raped in the ass with a cactus"

To tell you the truth, if I had to describe one exam like being raped in the ass with a cactus, it would be the Biology 207 Laboratory Examination.

Man, that was 3 years ago and I still shudder evertime I think about that test.

I think I'm going to apply for this awesome job. If I got it it would mean that I would have to drop out of school, but thinking about it makes me excited. I think it would really suit me. I don't want to say what it is because I'm an idiot, and GINA don't say what it is in the comments. I don't want to jinx it. I'm going to do it tomorrow.

Write a resume, a cover letter and get the fucking job. That way I don't have to go to school next semester.

How is it that I'm such a huge fuck-up all the time?

Ok rewind time.

It is now Wednesday again.

Severe panic attack as I'm walking into biochem midterm. Turn to page one of exam. I start blinking rapidly. I know the answer to question one. Turn page. I know question two, repeat sentance over and over until exam is done. (12 pages to be exact - 12 page exam in a 50 minute class, fucking crazy)

Wait, I knew the answers. Easy test, awesome. Am now in extrememly amazing good mood.

Fast forward to that evening, around midnight I'd say. I'm uploading songs to iTunes. I am happy. My arm gets a mind of its own and spills a glass of diet pepsi all over my laptop. I start screaming like a banchee and pick up laptop to drain it.

I start crying hysterically and try the computer. Nope, doesn't turn on. Doesn't do much of anything except when I look at it I start crying. I stay up all night long having a massive panic attack and crying like I've never cried before. All I can think about is how I want to eat my way into a coma and just die. Resist temptation to break into local bakery and steal all the cake. Total depression. Fucking computer, I love the fucking thing.

Must think of a way to clean the pepsi out of it so I can use the 3 year warantee. Dad comes up with a plan. We take it apart and clean it with rubbing alcohol. Ok, I agree to this.

Dad can't get it open. Now what? Good question. We recreate the scene of the crime and pour the rubbing alcohol into the computer, swish it around a bit and drain it.

Laptop is now at Future Shop, hopefully they can fix it.

Fuck.

HNT #7

I honnestly cannot believe this is my 7th week doing this. In all honnesty, I forgot about HNT this week.

I was totally preoccupied with a biochem midterm, and I forgot my toque in the city, so I have to take a break from toque HNT, and instead post a couple lame pics. mostly I'm sad, because I had a decent idea, oh well, next week I suppose.



Tonight I was finally able to relax, after a long long few days of nothing but metabolism and bioenergetics. (not that I don't like it, because actually I love metabolism, ugh I'm such a geek)..

Happy HNT!

2 hours 13 minutes until biochemistry midterm

i am fucked

fucked fucked fucked

no wait

its going to be ok

everything will be ok

breathe

stop blogging

It's a Birthday Montage. Turn up your SPEAKERS it's the most enjoyable part

A whole bunch of these pics include my bestest buddy Gina. Who got me an awesome fishy. Hi Gina!

Also, a big thanks to Grace for showing me how to get audio onto my blog.












Me right now; droopy eyed and delirious:

Only 1500 customers at work that yelled at me tonight. So that's pretty good. Not that many at all. I even had one guy rip up a coupon and throw it at me because he was mad that he couldn't have a discount, he was in the wrong parking lot. Idiot.

A coworker bought me supper and it was yummy. And now it is my birthday and I'm going to see Harry Potter on Imax with my brother and I am excited. Yeah yeah.

Also, it is really late and I'm totally delirious. But that's good.

Angela and I skipped EDU again today and instead we went to Whyte Ave. And we were walking down Whyte and then Angela was all "Stephanie! It's the Queens of the Stoneage!"

And it sure was. They were smoking beside their bus. And we walked right by them. We're so rad.

My First Theme Half-Nekkid Thursday

OK, this kicks off week 1 of at least 3 part HNT series featuring my absolute favorite thing about winter... my toque.

This toque is the only thing I have ever purchased from the GAP, ok, my mom bought it for me, but close enough. Oh wait, I have a GAP sweater, well that was a present too. OK this toque is one of two things I have ever recieved from the GAP, and honnestly, it is the bestest thing about winter and the whole reason I look forward to winter.



It nearly got stuck in the doors of a bus once, but I am grateful that it did not. As it brings me much joy in minus 35 degree weather.

OMG I did it. I made my own favicon. If you don't know what that is, look up at the URL, instead of the blogger pic, it's now a butterfly.

Yeah, I made that butterfly. Maybe this seems like a retarded thing to be proud of, but I'm computer illiterate, so I'm really quite proud.

You should bookmark me, because then the favicon will be in your bookmark list, and you can look at it and be like, "wow, is she ever awesome" because that is totally not what I am doing right now *lol*

EDIT: are favicons only seen in Mozilla? When I tried to view the blog in IE, no favicon. Hmmmm

I'm going to be honnest. Lately I fucking hate my blog. I just don't feel like blogging even a little bit. It's a little sad, because I remember when I first started the blog, and I would post like 12 nonsense posts a day, now I can't even come up with anything.

The only time I really feel like blogging is right now. When I have half an hour before biochem and nothing else to do. And today there is no EDIT 202 lab in the computer room so I can blog today.

Usually there is a lab and I look through the window at Felix and sometimes I stick my tongue out and laugh. Haha Felix.

This guy just walked by and he was talking on a cell phone, and he said: "You know what I just realized? That I'm thinking!"

Wow, at least I'm not that guy.

One time, in EDU 250, this weird guy sat beside me and elbowed me in the head (yes I've told this story before I knoW!) and now he's sitting beside me in the computer lab eating a bananna even though there are signs all over that say no food. And he only types with his index fingers, bananna covered index fingers.

I can hear music comming from somewhere, but I currently am unable to locate the source. And man oh man I wanted to stay home and watch Ellen this morning because it was her and Paul McCartney for a full hour and it looked like it was going to be really good but instead I was good and ran to the bus for some good transportation.

I have to go listen to Cuban music in biochem now.

Oh Man...

I've been sick with the flu for the past three days. It's been devestating to say the least. I was supposed to work Friday, Rememberance Day, double time and a half. But I was throwing up all over the place, so I didn't go to work, and I missed out on a stat holiday. devestating...

And now I'm home on Saturday night, doing nothing. Oh wait, that's normal. Hmmm Ok then

Music for Half Nekkid Thursday

I stole my brother's stereo and came up with this shot.
Happy HNT!

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Whore House

Seriously guys, the two fishies who just had babies are pregnant again. What is wrong with fishies today? No standards, just hold the eggs of any fish that swims by. Unbelievable.

This Year It Might Just Happen

Oh I am excited to see the snow. Oh yes yes I am. I need more, more snow please. I don't want to cancel it this year. I need lots of snow.

Prepare yourself for what I am about to tell you. It is extremely awesome. And although it is a little bit premature, I am excited nonetheless.

It is looking as if "Stephanie's Snowboganning Birthday Extravaganza" may take place this year. Last year it was cancelled due to a lack of snow on the hill. But now that we have a little bit, I'm hopeful that in the next 2 weeks enough snow will accumulate for my extravaganza to take place.

Yesterday Gina and I found a budgie outside United Furniture Wearhouse. It was just sitting on the sidewalk being scared and cute. So Gina picked him up and I got a box from the fish store and we took him home. And he's supposed to come live with me because mom got excited about the bird and now she just decided she doesn't want him anymore. So I have to break the news to Gina. uhoh. Mainly we're not taking him because both me and mom are totally scared of birds. Not my fault though, you try liking birds when one flies across your face as you're hiding in your bed.

Yup, wild bird flying around my bedroom, all over me, until baba came downstairs to see what was going on because I was screaming so loudly, she caught it and took it outside. Crazy bird.

Ahoy Mates! Numero Deux!

Yes, this is the second post tonight. Mainly because I just realized something.

I was changing my calender so that it says November, not October. And I was like, Hey 2 weeks until my Birthday.

November 19th folks. The big 23. Hmmm, I think I'm having a "midlife" crisis. Fuck that.

Time to jam.

Ahoy Mates!

Ahhhh my days of listening to music on my computer are over. You see, my stereo broke about 7 months ago, and due to a lack of funds I have yet to replace it. Until today that is.

I went upstairs to my brothers room, and carried his down to my room. And I am now enjoying music at a proper volume, loud, and bass, and other amazing technological advances.

He is in Vancouver right now, playing soccer for the Golden Bears and has yet to discover that I have stolen his stereo.

It's going to be a good night.

I Want a Chimpanzee!

Ok, So instead of studying for my Psych midterm tomorrow, I decided to watch ER and Survivor.

OMG did you guys watch ER??!?! They had a chimp on there and they were treating it in secret. And then they're doing stuff to it like putting a heart moniter on its little finger and that "Put the Lime In the Coconut" song is playing. And the chimp is being sooooooooooo cute.

It was so cute that I had to call my mom to make sure she was watching the cuteness too. And she was, and we were like "OMG that chimp is so cute!"

And then, you know what happens? He DIES> the fucking cutest chimp in the whole world DIES. OMG OMG OMG. I was so mad. After the coconut song and all the cuteness, he dies. So they bring his mom in so she can say goodbye. And then the mom chimp starts picking things out of Abby's hair and that's cute and everything, but the little baby chimp is dead.

I'm never watching TV again, (except Survivor, oh and also Prison Break, oh and Lost, but that's IT).

EDIT: Ok wait, I forgot House and The Office, which, HELLO is the funniest thing in the world. Yeah, nothing funnier than that show. ANd fuck, House is amazing, plus the guy who plays house is yummy. Yeah I went there. He's yummy. I don't care how old he is. I'd be lucky to age that yummily.

EDIT Numero 2: Ok, that guy, I just remembered his name, Hugh Laurie. Ahhh. Time to study

Half Nekkid Thursday, this Ideal Distraction

A rushed Half Nekkid Thursday this week, as I am currently scrambling to finish an essay that I've had 2 months to write and left until the very last moment. I am the queen of procrastination.

Happy Half Nekkid Thursday everyone!

Matthew Good is the God of my Adultery

I ended up going to Matthew Good alone, my friend cancelled. Luckily I met Chad in line. I ended up knowing his friend Sean from summer school 6 years ago. I'm extremely surprised he remembered me. I was quiet and shy and everything I try not to be when I meet new people. But somehow words wouldn't really come out of my mouth, no matter what I did. Ughh. One thing I noticed about Chad is that he randomly starts dancing and kicking. It's funny.

I don't know where to start, I don't even know how to start. I just remember feeling my eyes glaze over in ecstasy as The Man from Harold Wood started to play. The anticipation, the excitement, and the joy. And then it happened. If there was another way to start this show, I couldn't fathom it. The Rat Who Would Be King. My heart melted instantaneously. I was floored and drawn in, and every feeling I've ever felt at a Matthew Good concert surfaced and I remembered why I love him so much.


And then it changed, we're knee deep in Avalanche. And I'm desperately happy, not only for me, because Avalanche is one of my favorite live songs, but for Chad as well, because he was hoping for it. I don't have words for that song, when he changes his pitch in the second "avalanche" verse, it gets me everytime. It's not recorded like that, I feel privy to a secret.

Load Me Up was next, I love crowd pumping songs. Although, the two guys behind me were singing very loudly and it was annoying. And one of them was moving his arms around crazily and he hit me in the head a number of times. But alas, I cannot complain.
We're So Heavy. By this point I'm in a joy coma. It's my favorite off White Light, and I've been dying to hear it. He's plays it, and it's everything I'm hoping for. More actually. Suburbia, I'm in shock that this can get better, I'm waiting for Carmelina to fuck things up, but that doesn't happen. (Actually I like Carmelina live, it's just not my favorite song by a long shot). I wanted him to play Suburbia so badly, sighs of happiness.

Anyhoo, Bright End of Nowhere was a surprise to me. I never thought he would play it. A welcomed surprise. And how can you go wrong with 21st Century Living? Answer: you can't.
Hello Time Bomb and Oh Be Joyful were exactly what I expected, happy and fun and rejuvenating.

I've been waiting for Empty Road for an eternity. I've only seen it live at the Joint, acoustic, beautiful enough for tears, and that was before White Light was released. And here it is. I wish it had been acoustic, but it was marvelous nonetheless. Then Weapon and Advertising On Police Cars and I'm always floored by both. Especially Advertising. Fuck I love that song.

And somehow it's the completely acoustic encore. And he's playing Prime Time Deliverance. I have been waiting for this moment since Underdogs was released. My eyes are teary and I'm wrapped up in something that I couldn't possibly explain with words. I will never feel that again. The pure beauty of it.
And somehow, when I think I can't take anymore, he's playing Tripoli. And he's playing Apparitions, and then it's Generation X-Wing. It's the most heartfelt performance I've ever seen. I'm floored. I've never in my life heard anything more moving than this encore.

This post is way longer than I intended. I just couldn't stop. I didn't know where to start, and I just couldn't end.

More Matt Good Pics

EDIT: The Ladies and Gentlement were awesome, one of the best openers I've ever seen.

Caution... Today's Stompy Cartoon is Scaarrrry

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I'm So Rad ... I'm Like a Brand New Fad ... Aren't You Glad ... That I'm So Rad!

You Passed 8th Grade Math

Congratulations, you got 10/10 correct!

Could You Pass 8th Grade Math?

Your IQ Is 130

Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average Your Verbal Intelligence is Genius Your Mathematical Intelligence is Genius Your General Knowledge is Above Average

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It's Post 170! The Sheer Excitement of it All

Today I did something I don't normally do for school and ended up regretting it hardcore. I curled my hair. When I left the house is looked fucking cute. Don't get me wrong, I'm not egotistical in the least, most of the time I look like I've been rolling around in the mud, but today my hair was cute. Then 15 minutes later the left side of my head uncurled and I looked like a stupid retard girl who was trying but just couldn't do it.

:), says:
you probably looked like you just got laid *L* flat hair on one side

I wore my fucking awesome cute shoes as well, thinking, "hey, I've only got one class, my feet will be awesome OK in these shoes". I forgot I had this dumb research project thing and that I basically had to walk all over campus all day long. And so my feet are so sore right now.

So after class, in which I spent my time drawing a cartoon of the proff, I went for coffee with Angela, and then we had lunch, and then as I was walking to the research
thing I started thinking "fuck this man" so I took off my shoes and walked around campus with just these "stalkings" on my feet. People were looking at me weird, and I was fantasizing hitting them with my shoes, but I don't want blood on them, so it was completely unrealistic. Probably blood is hard to get out of suede. Oh shoes, how can you be so cute? I just don't know.

Lyndsey has been showing my cartoons around the Faculty of Education, so slowly, but surely, the Stompy movement is gaining momentum. I love that guy, Halloween special comming up! I totally promise because I can see it in my head so therefore it will be done.

Matt Good this weekend. I'm going to one of the three shoes, and I'm sad about that. I think I'm going to go to the one on Monday as well. I invited Gina, she says the reason she can't go on Sat or Sun is because she has to work, now it's homework, grrrr. I have a midterm and a paper due! So it will be just me, alone. I've never gone to a concert alone before. I'm kind of scared about it, but I guess I'm there to hear him, not for conversation or anything so it's all good.

I'm going to dress up. Cause it's Halloween and all. I'm thinking of a sweet, and not hard at all costume. Pink bunny ears and probably extreme pink makeup and Sour Cherry Lipstick. A Matt Good costume for a Matt Good concert. I'm so cute. (I know, holy moly I gave myself a half compliment, fucking insane - don't get used to it hosers).

I'm Nekkid, You're Nekkid, We're all Nekkid - Half Nekkid!

Ho Hum, Happy Half Nekkid Thursday Everyone!
The unfortunate thing about making this pic black and white is that you can't see my awesome socks, which are red, white and pink and they look like candy cane's and feel like clouds!

Your Career Type: Investigative

You are precise, scientific, and intellectual. Your talents lie in understanding and solving math and science problems. You would make an excellent: Architect - Biologist - Chemist Dentist - Electrical Technician - Mathematician Medical Technician - Meteorologist - Pharmacist Physician - Surveyor - Veterinarian The worst career options for your are enterprising careers, like lawyer or real estate agent.

What's Your Ideal Career?

Man oh Man

Last night I had this totally fucked up out of this world dream.

OK, so I was driving this submarine around the ocean and I had a crew but there were only 2 other crew memebers left because the other ones died when we had a runin with some sea pirates.

In any case, it was the 3 of us driving the submarine around the ocean. Then there was this other submarine driving straight for us and I was like "all hands on desk hosers!"

So the crew came and I was like "we're going to drive under the other submarine" but when we dove down the submarine started filling up with water and I was "uh oh". But it was OK, because we didn't fill up completely with water. But then somehow the temperature dropped off a whole fucking lot and the water started to freeze.

So we thought the best idea would be for all of us to lie on the floor and let the water freeze overtop of us because by this point there was a lot of fucking water and nowhere to hide.

So we all lay down and I had this button that I was going to push at the very last minute before it was complete ice over my face so that the submarine would start rising again because we were still underneath the other submarine.

Anyway, the ice started freezing, and somehow we could breath underwater? hmmm? OK, so then I'm watching the ice form and my body is getting cold. And I can't move because I'm frozen, which, let me tell you, was not part of the original plan. Then I remember falling asleep in the water as its freezing some more.

Then I open my eyes as the final layer of ice is freezing on top of me and I woke up FOR REAL, in real life I mean, because I couldn't breathe. It was the most fucked up thing ever.

Sometimes Nothing is better than Something

sometimes i feel like blogging
sometimes i dont
sometimes when i meet new people i act like a total uber bitch
but actually i am just shy and scared that they will not like me
i burned my forehead with a curling iron
i'm reveling in how hair incompetant i am right now
its not a super bad burn, but i can see it,
and when i look at it i'm all "you're such a retard"
who burns their forehead? neck maybe ok, but forehead?
and then i wanted icecream so i had some and i used 3 spoons to get it ready
but it was awesome
then i watched the fishies for a while and they were swimming
except like half the babies have died because who knows why
so there's only like 15 babies left and my heart is broken because of it
yesterday my baba gave these homeless people apple pie
they wanted her bottles as they rummaged through her garbage and she said no
but then she gave them an apple pie
simpsons is on right now and i like this show
homer becomes a rat in burn's prison

Should've Been A Super Villain says:
there was this guy that gina used to date and he was totally fucked up and used to ram his head into light posts and give himself a concussion, and so i used to slap him so he wouldn't fall asleep and it was sweet but he was a retard who wanted to get gina pregnant so she would marry him, and she was only 16 and it was fucked up

Should've Been A Super Villain says:
so this one time he was freaking out and we called the cops and then i called my dad

Should've Been A Super Villain says:
who showed up before the cops and the boyfriend, jeff, was trying to drag gina out of the car and my dad got out of his car with a baseball bat and was like "where the fuck is my daughter:

Should've Been A Super Villain says:
then the cops came, and one of them was soooooo hot

Should've Been A Super Villain says:
then i wrote an english final

OMG it's 4:07am
this is fucked up

Do You Realize I'm Missing?

my bum hurts
the chair in my booth was beyond substandard and i couldn't stand and help customers because i am too tall to reach out the window to the cars
so i had to sit on the "rock" chair and now my bum hurts unbelievable
they told me my hair looked really nice
and i believed them for a minute or two
i look younger they say
when did i get my hair cut? they say
i say three weeks ago,
and i haven't been to work in a month
nothing has changed
oh wait, all new staff
all new staff on the verge of quitting because of poor pay and inadequate training
so i guess that remains the same
my fishies had their babies
and my mom won't stop freaking out about how much she loves them
and i'm trying to study and she comes in my room 900 times to see them

some are smaller and harder to find, they stay on the bottom
and somehow their talk about how nice my hair is has led me to take an extra shift tomorrow
because i'm a sucker for flattery due to i never hear any and all
one lady stood outside my booth and couldn't recognize me even though we've worked together for 3 years and i just don't understand that
in any case
i had vietnamese food for lunch today, and the leftovers for supper and they were yummy
my hands are black from newsprint
gross
i'm tired
i'm tired of being me
i'm tired of being me and running from who i am
i'm tired of being me and being ashamed of who i am
i'm depressed
it's late
stupid fucking job
keeps me up all night
and i have to go back tomorrow
they bribed me with compliments and candy and cream for my coffee
the 4 C's of getting Stephanie to do what you want

Half-Nekkid Thursday

Happy Half-Nekkid Thursday everyone.
Wanna play? Check out the link in the sidebar.

I'm Stealing, ok?

Today on my way home from school, I was riding the bus you see, and I was looking out the window like a zombie when all of a sudden something caught my eye.
A large bunny and my hand flew to the bell to get off the bus. I walked up to the pole and started removing staples. I then proceeded to steal the Matthew Good poster like it was nobody's business.

Only like 10 people were watching. That's not so bad.

This is super funny

I don't know why stuff like this happens, I just don't understand

My Fish are Whores

Ok, my fishies are having babies. I thought they were dying but Gina says they're having babies so now two of my fishie momma's are in their own tank awaiting the arrival of the fishy babies.

Anyway, here's the pics of the fish I bought at the auction. He's big and pretty and red and white and I love him and he was worth every penny and I'm happy I got him and he didn't die.

Ok Dudes

Ok dudes, tomorrow I'm going to a fish auction.

Gina is making me go. I didn't buy any fish last time. But I was also totally drunk out of my mind at the last fish auction. Man I was drunk last time. Haha. Also, last time I had a hotdog at the concession and it was yummy, hopefully they'll be good this year and if they're not I'm leaving and going for lunch instead of watching the 14 hour fish auction and thinking about how awesome it would be if aliens were sucking my brains out.

So anyway, tomorrow is the fish auction. And today I saw Elizabethtown and it was OK. I mean, I enjoyed it, but I don't know how I feel about it really because I don't know why. That makes no sense. Well fuck it. Today is Saturday and I feel like a retard because I'm home on a Saturday night, but I actually don't give a shit because I didn't feel like doing anything and I'm the epitamy of antisocial right now.

Man I could really go for some coffee. And you know what's total bullshit? is that Tim Horton's raised their fucking prices! Like what the shit man? an extra 10 cents? $1.50 for a coffee? ahhhhhh fucking bullshit.

if there's no cute fish i'm going to go ballistic and then hyperventillate and then probably just have a hot dog.

Who wears meat hats, meat hats?

Should've Been A Super Villain says:
and no one can say anything, because if they do, they have to walk the plank

i might like you better if we slept together says:
i think they should do that anyway

i might like you better if we slept together says:
i mean for our amusement

Should've Been A Super Villain says:
well yeah, but this would be punishment.

i might like you better if we slept together says:
oh ok

i might like you better if we slept together says:
wait punishment isn't amusing for us?

Should've Been A Super Villain says:
well it is. but maybe they could walk at different speeds or maybe people getting punished should have to wear a funny hat

i might like you better if we slept together says:
a meat hat?

Should've Been A Super Villain says:
i was going to say santa but thats way better

Should've Been A Super Villain says:
i thought it was a joke a first

Should've Been A Super Villain says:
then i was like

Should've Been A Super Villain says:
this is a real website?

Should've Been A Super Villain says:
wtf?

Should've Been A Super Villain says:
i mean, what about bears?

Should've Been A Super Villain says:
doesnt a meat hat attract bears?

i might like you better if we slept together says:
see, i wonder about shit like that too

i might like you better if we slept together says:
i mean

i might like you better if we slept together says:
the meat hats attracting bears

i might like
you better if we slept together says:
and flies?
i might like you better if we slept together says:
i mean..

Should've Been A Super Villain says:
tigers

i might like you better if we slept together says:
if it's hot, does the shit start cooking?

Should've Been A Super Villain says:
good question

Should've Been A Super Villain says:
and how long before your hat goes bad and starts smelling?

i might like you better if we slept together says:
exactly

i might like you better if we slept together says:
i mean these are serious concerns

Should've Been A Super Villain says:
seems like a bad investment to mee

i might like you better if we slept together says:
you could never wear one with a dog in the house

i might like you better if we slept together says:
it would eat your hat

Should've Been A Super Villain says:
and maybe your ear if it got too excited

Should've Been A Super Villain says:
this is fucked up funny

i might like you better if we slept together says:
see yeah, it could take a chunk out of your forehead thinking it was part of the hat

i might like you better if we slept together says:
fuck that man

I'm a retard and if you dont like it you can fug off man

Probably swearing isn't good manners in the title, so I should wait until the body of the post before I start swearing uncontrollably.

Today I'm a retard. I spent the last while downloading fucking Photoshop and now it's installed and working and I can't figure out how to use the fucking thing and I'm an idiot and that's that.

Then me and Isabel talked about how we're going to be whores on the same corner. And I was thinking that I should wear my new shoes:
And then I thought that maybe these shoes aren't slutty enough. But seriously guys. I'm in love with these shoes right now and all I can think about it how ahhhhh I love these shoes. And also, they are cute.

Weird noises are happening upstairs. Either my dad is walking around or there is a burglar in the house. Or maybe it's the TV.

I could go for some popcorn right about now.
But maybe I'll have popcorn tomorrow. Or I might go to the Women's Show and meet Rob and Amber from Survivor. Because that's what they're doing now. The Women's Show circuit. A couple years ago it was Colby from Survivor, and then last year is was Josh Duhamel from Las Vegas show and he's like fucking hotter than a sauna.

HNT

OK, so here's my first attempt at HNT (Half-Nekkid Thursday).

I really should be studying for my midterm.

You'd Better Take off those Dancing Pants or Someone is going to get Hurt

I forget what I was going to blog about. That's not good. Hmmm. Lost is on tonight. I should really study for EDU midterm, but ahh Lost is so good. Can't miss Lost nope nope. Hmmm still no idea what I was going to blog about.

Psych midterm was a fucking joke.

I was bitchy to a girl before the midterm. She was rudely talking super loud to her friend and was like "want to know how I remember what the hippocampus does? well it has 'camp' in it and so like you go to camp and you do stuff! haha!"

so I turned to her and I said "you know what makes more sense than that? it has 'campus' in it and you are in fact on campus LEARNING, yeah, campus, not camp"

and she proceeded with "oh! ha! that does make more sense! teehee fra la la"

I firmly believe that I should not be allowed to associate with 1st year students as I will probably kill them all.

Take Out Your Dancing Pants

OK guys, I passed biochem midterm. Party party party. Didn't do that great on it, but, I didn't fail. So there's that.

It's weird how a week of your life can just go by and you don't even really notice. Spending all that time in bed, and nothing really changed, didn't really miss anything important.

Today in EDU I saved a seat for someone and they did not come sit by me, so this other crazy guy came and he was moving around the whole time and kept kicking me and then he hit me in the head with his elbow and it was super annoying. And he kept talking to me during the movie we were watching and I was like "can't you see that I just want you to fuck off and stop talking to me and stop kicking me now?!?!" but as always I said nothing and just kind of nodded and kept watching the movie. In other news, psych midterm tomorrow. Also, I can't stop coughing.

Stephanie Secret: I don't like pizza

Brain Function is at an all time Low

I've been sick. I've had the worst head cold imaginable and then multiply that thought by a zillion and that's how sick I was/am. But I feel a little better today. I should hope so, I've spent the last 48hours sleeping. Not exactly the most productive few days. Two midterms comming up this week, about 4 weeks of reading to catch up on in the next 3 days. So this should be good.

Anyway, biochem midterm went better than expected, which is great because I was feeling so insanely drowsy before it, I'm just glad I managed to stay awake and answer all the questions. I don't have my mark, but since I anticipates like 10% i think I may have surpassed that.

I'm not too woried about the psych midterm. Friday was a review session in class and people were asking super dumbass questions, so dumb that even the prof started laughing. "Ummm, will we have to know which part of the brain does what?" Uhh YEAH dumbass. We spent over a week discussing it, you think it's not going to be on the exam? Well, that calmed my nerves at least.

It's a Panic Attack Kind of Day

I'm not ready. Biochem midterm tomorrow. I'm hyperventilating. I don't know all the enzymes. I don't know the structures of coenzymes. I don't know anything. I can't breathe.

It's a Miracle

Today something happened to me that has never ever ever happened to me before. I used up a school supply. I ran out of white out. Usually I lose pens before they run out of ink etc... So after years of just losing stuff or throwing stuff away, I've finally run out of something.

Goodbye white out - it was fun.. all the mistakes you erased, I appreciate it.

It's a Mad World

Busy busy weekend for me. Well, sort of. I got my hair cut on Thursday. I both like it and hate it simultaneously. Mainly because the chick was like, "its easy to style" and then when I tried to do it I looked like my head had exploded in stupidness. Anyway, Friday night, after an hour of trying to style the stupid hair, which ended up in a ponytail like always. So then we went to Gina's friends house and proceeded to get piss drunk out of our minds.

Then we went to the Stonehouse and had more drinks and then for some reason I decided I was hungry and left the bar, all by myself piss ass drunk. I walked for what seemed like a million years looking for the #6 bus stop but all I could find was #5. So then I got a little scared cause I was lost downtown and didn't know where the bar was.
So I managed to find a Tim Hortons and went inside and called my mom to tell her that I lost Gina and I'm lost downtown and I'm drunk and I can't find the bus stop so can someone please come and pick me up? So I waited at Tim Hortons and had a bagel. And then I called Gina's dad by accident and told him the whole story. THen my brother came and we went to McDonalds and had chicken nuggets.

The End

Metaphysics? More like MetaFuckingRetardsOrgasmParty

Yeah you heard me Meta Fucking Retards Orgasm Party.

I am honnestly trying my best to be openminded. That's why I took this class in the first place. I thought hey, a new way of thinking, something other than science, things not based only on fact. I was wrong. This was a bad idea. A rage inducing idea. Honnestly, I just keep looking at my prof and having to bite my lip to keep from laughing at him.

On Monday we were debating language. For example, realists say that "john is bald". Nominalists don't believe that John exists so nominalists argue that john is not bald, but can't say that john isn't bald because that in fact acknowledges that john exists and nominalists argue that john doesn't exist. OK, fine.

So how do they get around this conundrum you might ask? Well, it's so clear its like mud. They say that John is John-ized. You might be thinking, "hey, that isn't a real word" and you would be right!

Next point, John-ized means to be John. Ok, so we're just making up words in case you didn't notice.

So now, there is something, X, which is both john-ized and bald.
And therefore the sentace is true and untrue both at the same time. Hurrah!

Last week, a white dove and a while flag are the same thing because they are both white. Alright, so how many of you are sitting around in a circle holding hands singing kumbaya and debating what white means? Who is paying these people to talk about this stuff? It's all these arts students bashing science students who just "can't figure out how to read the textbook". Actually, its not a textbook, its a bunch of articles by people who are crazy. And it looks like they maxed out their thesaurus usage because instead of saying something rationally, its just a lot of huge words strung together in no particular order.

On the plus side. Today I was able to find a replacement pin. Ahhhhh the world is right again.

Yeah Metaphysics, she's giving you the finger.

Nothing to Move, Nothing in here to Explain

So today I met Chad. And it was weird. Not weird because you aren't awesome Chad, but because you totally took me by surprise.

He asked me if I thought it was weird that we both ended up in the same class. And my answer is no, I totally don't. What I find weird is how out of the millions of people on the internet, and out of two who people actually read my blog, that one of them is in the Faculty of Ed at the same school as me. So after all that, I totally don't find it weird that we're in the same class.

So then I felt dumb because I was acting crazy because I was feeling a little guilty over not saying Hi to him even though I kind of recognized him, but I wasn't totally sure it was him. So I brought up the only thing I could think of which was the stupid class we had.

Which, by the way, was ruined by these two people sitting behind me who talked at full volume through the whole lecture. I hate people like that, just be quiet already. If I don't want to pay attention and go to sleep that's my problem, but you talking and making me not able to hear the prof just pisses me off because I can't decide for myself to tune him out. If they sit there next time I'm going to freak out at them.

Anyway, I'm having a lovely day because I only have one class and I just finished my psych assignment, do a web search *lol* and now I can go home. The stupid U of A website won't load on the computer at home so that's why I'm doing it here.

Waiting for text message from Corinne to let me know which Matt Good show she wants to go to. I haven't decided if I'm gonna go to both, I would love to, but my bank account is hurting right now, decisions decisions.

This was a lame post.

Things that are lame right now:
5-hunger
4-the chick at the next computer keeps looking at my comp to see what i'm doing
3-not having a ticket to Matt Good
2-i lost my pin that says "ms. bitter" and had a cartoon on it like those books from when you're a kid and the series is "mr.men" and they're all kinds of things like the one guy with really long arms "mr. tickle" so anyway i lost my pin
1-i have to go read metaphysics and i'd rather poke out my eyes with my lost ms. bitter pin, which i lost yesterday after metaphysics on the way to the bus so boooooo to metaphysics

Lists are wicked

EDIT: Chad you can come sit with us in EDU if you want.. but let me know so I can save you a seat. But like no pressure, if you don't want to thats cool

Blah Blah Yeah Yeah Blah

funny

Today I didn't do anything and then I watched a show about a guy who weighs 1000lbs and they call him the half ton man. And then Richard Simmons was there and his hair looked kickass.

It was gross.

Fuckin Telus Bullshit

I hate Telus. They're always like, pay more for stuff and I'm like no way hose (more effective if my keyboard typed spanish, but alas it does not).

In anycase, they want $7.00 in long distance charges, but I didn't go anywhere, and I didn't phone anyone that did.

Oh fuck, Gina, this is from when we were in Calgary and buying fish and junk like that. Ok, I get it now.

Here's a Post for Isabel, La La La

Here is my phone. It is black and shiny and blinks all kinds of colors and plays Holiday from Green Day which makes me happy.








And here is my open phone with a picture of my doggie on the screen.

Better than Blueberry Pie, OK, it isn't

I'm tired today. I couldn't sleep after my emotional breakdown last night. And my eyes are sore, and I should go to bed but I feel like just sitting around instead so that's what I'm doing really.

I have so much reading to do. I don't know if work knows that I'm comming in 2 hours late tomorrow. I don't have much faith in the person I left the message with, so who knows.

I got a new cell phone today. It's really pretty.

That is all.

Help Me Up, A Pair Of Wings, A Little Rope, All Those Things

Recently I've had the feeling of impending doom... originally I had chalked it up to the fact that I had no idea what was going on in school. But today I found out what it was really about.

I saw my ex-boyfriend today. It's quite the story with him. Dated on and off for 4 years. Loved him, hated him. Mostly just hated myself with him. He broke up with me because he was building weapons for foreigners but I shouldn't worry because in the event of a disaster his "assets" would be protected (i.e. his family and mine). So honnestly, thank god he broke up with me, crazy fuck.

I gave up all of my friends to be with him... retrospect is a bitch. I gave up all my best friends for someone who made me feel beyond inadequate. So my life would feel like I was drowning. Constantly fighting for air. I'd spend everyday wishing things were better. He enforced a rule that I could only see him one day a week. And if I insisted on sleeping over, he acted like he couldn't wait to get rid of me in the morning. Actually I can still remember what he said "I don't want you to sleep here because it'll end up in a long goodbye in the morning." Oh sorry, I thought we were dating, I didn't know this was torture for you. At least if the sex had been good it might have been worthwhile, but it wasn't. It was boring, and I'd spend the whole time thinking, and might I add this was the ONLY time I would think this, that I should be studying.

He forced me to watch Star Trek with him, and all the movies as well. He made me feel small, like I should be thanking my lucky stars that I was with him, even though he had to lour me back into his life a number of times. I guess I should mention that I was the one who broke up with him 5 or so times before our actual break up forever break up. I should have stuck to my intuition. I regret it. It's the only regret I have.

Anyway, back to today. I saw him at the U of A bus depot. I proceeded to run like a crazy person and hide behind a bus. I don't think he saw me. I've never prayed before, but I prayed today. I prayed that my bus would show up so I could run away, like I always have from him. My bus showed up and I got on. I watched him through the window for a good 5 minutes before my bus pulled away.

He looked older. He looked like I thought he would, like someone with no real attachements, like someone who has forgotten me. And instantly I became the girl I was 3 years ago. No self worth, no self respect, just self loathing. The pathetic girl that I was with him, someone who no matter what, couldn't stand up for themself.

And even though I know I'm not that person, I can't stop it from comming out of me. I need a drink. I need something. I need to feel like someone actually understands, and not that they're just saying that they do, because it's not the same.

And even as I write this I cry just a little bit for him. I'm scared no one will ever love me. Truely, honnestly love me... and it'll just be me forever and ever. I'm just to scared to ask the question that's really haunting me, how can someone else love me if I don't even love myself?

I'm a senioritta who is melting at a very fast rate. (By the way, In a Coma kicks fucking ass hardcore).

OK Hiro, You Got Me

I must admit Hiro, it was a good move going to the professor of physics to tell her that Angela and I walked out on the lab. You're one kickass TA. My favorite part was the email she sent us telling us to come and see you immediately. Smooth one.
But I have one-up'd you. I dropped the class. Maybe you should have checked that out first. Just an idea.

Hey Hiro, Screw You!

On Monday the most unusual thing in the world happened. Angela and I walked out of our physics lab.

That's right folks, we just walked out. That's not the kind of thing that people do, but we did it. And I'm so fucking proud to be me right now.

After recieving 25% on our previous physics lab, Angela went into the hallway to call the Faculty of Education to see how we could change out minors and leave physics forever. So after a little bit of debate over what we should do, and an hour of working on the lab. We packed up our bags and left the lab. I'm just going to assume our TA, Hiro, was freaking out beyond belief. Mwahaha.

But seriously, Boooo to the Department of Physics for such a poorly run lab and such a confusing lecture. Boo to you physics. There was no lab direction, none. We showed up the first day and Hiro was like, get used to my accent and start your labs now. So we all worked with our partners with no help or direction from him at all. Then this week he's all, you guys are really independent and I like that, unfortunately the lab average is 50%. So most of you are doing everything wrong. Wooo! Then one chick is like "umm what's the average in the other labs?" Hiro claimed not to know, but we all know that he did.

I've now enrolled in two new classes, and starting both of them a week late is such a bitch. I'm like 3 chapters behind in Psychology and I haven't been to Metaphysics yet, but I'm just going to assume from the size of the textbook that starting late might be a small problem.

Depressing Derby of Delectiblity

Gina why can't you/maybe can't go to Matt Good. Now what am I going to do?

Go by myself. Probably.

Can't think about not going. I'm melting........

Boogie Doogie Baby

Finally, Survivor is back! Ahhhh the world it right again. How happy am I that they brought Stephenie back? So happy! I'm totally rooting for her, tough chick.

Hmmm also, well, there is no also really. I was just saying that.

I'm lame.

I have to work tomorrow. That's even lamer than me.

Top 5 Things that are Lame Right Now:
5) my feet are cold
4) so is my nose
3) i'm sleepy
2) i'm lame
1) working tomorrow is lame

I should compile lists more often. Many hours of thought into that list right there.

Back to the also, totally lame guest speaker today.. he talked like Chip from Napoleon Dynamite. He has a PhD, he couldn't operate the button machiene to click between slides in PowerPoint. I can see all that education was wasted on him. I drew a picture of him during the lecture. Stompy cartoon will soon follow this post. Like maybe tomorrow or so.

I Will Always Be the Worst

The other day I was walking around campus with Angela, and we saw a squirrel. So I took a picture.
That was a good day. I like squirrels. They're funny. All that running and being cute.

I'm flipping out because this semester I seem to have lost all my brain power. Could be interesting. I've never failed all my classes at one time before. But physics and both biochem's aren't looking all that great right about now. Oh well. New motto: fuck school man!

Hey im Tom, im looking for a sexy girl to have some fun with.

Here you go Gina, I'm assisting in your slack off tendencies. I'll make it short so you can get back to work *lol*

I clicked on my title thing and this title came up. I don't know why, but it kicks some ass. And it was right there with a whole bunch of my old titles.

I know I've been post lazy but I've been way too busy. Stupid U of A, too much work. I basically have no idea what's going on in all of my classes and am pretty much fucked.

Work this weekend was terrible. I walked around for 12.5 hours and didn't even finish everything I was supposed to do, but I went home because I was mad and tired and hadn't eaten in 9.5hours. Bullshit is all I have to say about that.

And now my nose is sniffly because I was out in the rain and it was cold and windy. And now Family Guy is on and I'm watching it instead of reading my physics lab because I'm sick of physics and I've only been in school for 3 days. Good sign.

In other news, I got a microphone thingy today. It's cute and small and I'm going to record things. Secret things. Captain's Log, sky looks nice tonight... Spock? Spock where did you go? I'm cold all over :(

Ugh Arg

Today I watched tennis, 4 hours of it actually. I've never watched tennis before, it was pretty good. Definatly something I would watch again.
The one thing I don't like about it is how they scream/moan when they're hitting the ball. Kind of drives me crazy.

Anyway, I had to blog about something because the picture of the spider was creeping me out and I had nightmares about it and refused to sleep in my room and slept on the couch instead.

Tonight I feel sad because tomorrow is my last day of fulltime work and even though I hate my job more than anything, I'm sad to be leaving. And even though that is sooooo stupid I'm still sad.

Heart Attack a Thousand Times Over

So I was walking around my room trying to comfort my doggie because of the thunderstorm that was going on when I discovered the most horrifing thing in history:
A Spider. It looked just like this photo and it was on the outside of my window and I freaked out and started screaming and went out in the pouring rain and hosed it off my window.

Later I came back to my room and the little fucker was back, so I called in backup, my Dad and he killed it and I felt a lot better and I'm going to have nightmares tonight.

My Face is Peeling Off

The guy at the fish store that I thought was a total retard actually turned out to be relatively intelligent today because he knew what a wavelength was and also what the latin root of a fish name meant and why it was called that due to the wavelength.
Gina you know the guy, the one that got the daffodils for us. And when I went there today he looked cute in a "you're not as dumb as thought" kind of way and it was refreshing. I took pics of my fishies that don't do them justice because they won't come to the front of the tank and you can't see all the pretty little yellow streaks across their faces and they have blue eyes, bright blue that is. And also you can't see the iridescent fins that don't show up on the camera for some reason that I will find out because I want a nice picture. Crazy hosers.

Yesterday this crazy Moroccan guy that I've been talking to proposed to me and told me that even though I'm fat he would like to marry me. Yeah, top that girls, that's one for the romance history books. Crazy and mean all rolled into one absolutely fucking nuts marriage proposal.

Good day.

Make Me Your Animal... Make Me Your Freak

So today I cleaned my room and it was boring and I'm not done because I'm never done.

Anyway, I went to see the 40-year Old Virgin, and it was funny. Some parts were really funny, others not so much.

I was driving home and then all of a sudden my lights cut out and I couldn't see anything because it was all pitch black outside and I was just jamming to tunes and eating popcorn and minding my own business. Fucking car.

So then I pulled over and thought about all the crazy people who could come and try to kill me so I locked my door and called my dad who came to get me.

And he did and while he was driving my car home the lights came back on and everything was OK> also, my popcorn was really yummy.

So then I came home and told my brother and he laughed at me.

There's a Spaceman in my Basement

Today I got in a fight with my brother. I hate fighting with him.. not just because he's a completely arrogant little asshole, but because I'm scared that when we're older and have our own lives that we won't talk to each other and that makes me sad.

Tomorrow at work, this woman who used to be my manager, use that term lightly because she wasn't actually my boss, is getting fired. Ahahahahahah. That's sweet. She used to yell at me until she was blue in the face, and now she's getting fired because she's incompetant and treats the boss like shit and turns her back on him and refuses to acknowledge him and she thinks she's better than me because her husband is a pharmacist and she wears "bling bling" from the home shopping channel and I like to laugh at her a lot.

Man do I ever feel like chocolate. It started innocently enough with one M&M, but fuck, now I feel like I could eat my weight in chocolate, That's a Fucking LOT!

But no chocolate in the house, too late to go and get some and not seem totally crazy and also have my mom ask a hundred zillion questions about where I went and such.

I have a scab on my tummy, I keep picking it. It's going to scar, and when I'm finally skinny I'm going to point out the scar so people don't notice my stretch marks. I'm a fucking genius.

Well it Makes My Mom Proud.. I will Bask in our Disaster if it'll Phase Us Out

So today at work we discussed creation vs. evolution. I was unaware that all of my coworkers are like die hard religious people and I'm the only one into evolution.
Basically they don't believe in the big bang. I argue that if God created the world, what did he make it out of? They didn't have an answer. Because if God made the earth out of preexisting molecules, then the molecules would definately have been able to react in big bang theory. You know, as proven in scientific experiments where conditions were recreated to see what would happen. Atoms came together, life formed. Hmmmmm, ok.

Next question: If God created everything, what the fuck were the dinosaurs about? Unless of course you don't believe dinosaurs existed, their bones are some big scam. *Note: not preaching, merely yelling in my defense as the only non-religionite in the room*

Anyway, what were the dinosaurs about? I don't fucking know and don't pretend to, so if Adam and Eve were the start of it all, were they camping out in a cave while the dinosaurs frolicked in the field below?

And don't fucking tell me I'm "on the fence". I'm not, it's all about evolution with me and that's all there is to it.

I'm not saying there is no God, I just don't really believe in him/her. Yeah I said HER. I'm more into the idea that people have something to believe in, and that's cool with me, I like the idea that maybe there is someone to protect us. But I'm not running my life based on crazy assumptions. Because you know what they say when you assume something: it makes an ASS of U and ME.

Mwahahahahahaha

I'm Caving In

My tailbone hurts like it's been stomped on by a steel toe boot. And it's just because of the stupid chair I sit on at work. I would stand, but then the window would be at my crotch, and since I have a hole in my pants in my crotch area, probably not a good idea. Fucking pants.

Yesterday I was walking around the backroom and somehow slipped and my ankle twisted and cracked really loud and now today it's swollen like a house and I can't stand on it very well and it's all good because now I don't have to go to Spalady but I might go for exrays tomorrow. Cause it's really bruised and swollen and hurts like a fucking crazy man.

My manager got in a car accident in the parking lot and spent all afternoon yelling at her insurance company and it was kind of funny but not really but kind of.


Today I feel like I want to be a biochemist. I don't know how long this will last, but I have the feeling in the pit of my stomache that maybe being a teacher isn't exactly what I want to be doing. And I'm having total anxiety. I don't fucking know what to do. Maybe I'll try to get into grad school. But fuck, you need a crazy ass GPA for that, and I don't have one, and I don't fucking know what to do. I'm having a 1/4 20's crisis.

Fuck